From Seeker to Guide:
My Journey to Arriving
How 11 years on the path taught me that transformation isn't found in the next experience — it's built in the daily practice of staying present with yourself.
At 30, I was doing everything "right."
11 years in sales. Shop manager. Stable income. Following the script.
And I was deeply unhappy. Depressed. Empty.
Something cracked open.
And I couldn't ignore it anymore.
I went all in.
Breathwork
Trained as a facilitator. Guided sessions. Felt the power of conscious breathing to unlock what's been held.
Kundalini Activation
Completed my training last year. Learned to hold space for life force energy to move through the body without force or control.
Plant Medicine
Ayahuasca. Sacred ceremonies. I assisted and guided retreats for two years. Held space for others in their deepest unraveling.
Vipassana Meditation
Goenka tradition. 10-day silent retreats. Learning to observe the mind without reacting.
Tantra
Embodiment & Sacred sexuality. Learning to be fully present and sensory inside the physical system.
TRE (Tension & Trauma Release)
Somatic shaking. Letting the nervous system release what it's been holding at cell level.
I tried everything. I had profound openings, but they were temporary.
And then I'd always fall back.
The Seek's Endless Loop:
- 1Feel stuck or Carrie friction
- 2Find a new sensory modality
- 3Have a beautiful peak experience
- 4Feel liberated for a brief moment
- 5Crash back into protective patterns
- 6Seek the next big experience
I was chasing external coordinates. Collecting certifications. Waiting to arrive.
But I had never learned to stay.
Then, something shifted.
Not from a dramatic ceremony. But from choosing structure, raw honesty, and consistency.
I focused on daily somatic grounding:
- • Dedicated morning practice (breath, fluid wave motion, somatic stillness)
- • Noticing my mind's defense triggers in real time
- • Interrupting protective stories before they became action
- • Staying anchored in the body with what felt uncomfortable instead of escaping
And for the first time in 11 years...
the integration stuck.
The peak experience opens the door. But integration is what keeps it open.
Neuroscientists call it metacognition — the capacity to observe one's own mind in real time.
Learning to stay.
When you can notice:
- • Your thoughts without instantly believing them
- • Your triggers without automatically reacting
- • Your patterns without defending or justifying them
You create the sacred space to choose differently.
Beyond the Work
When I am not holding integration space or facilitating active groups, you'll find me:
- • Traveling (currently connecting deeply with Bali)
- • Swimming in the raw ocean (my daily reset)
- • Exploring local cultures and cities
- • Deepening studies in nerves systems, somatics, and relational trauma
Fluently holding boundaries in English, German, and Hungarian.
raise your light isn't just a business coordinate. It is my daily alignment. Letting my inner truth emerge, and helping you meet yours.
Formative Training
Training & Certifications:
- • Kundalini Activation Facilitator (2024)
- • Breathwork Facilitator (2024)
- • Plant Medicine Integration Assistant (2 years)
- • 10-day Silent Vipassana Meditation (Goenka)
- • Somatic Tremor Release Exercises (TRE)
But my true container lies in the 11 years spent seeking, falling, and finally learning how to stay.